The nights i cannot sleep are the nights that thoughts bounce around in my heart and head. for some reason writing about things helps me. maybe no one will read it but it doesn't matter to me. i just know it needs to be free.
when i write...i don't need to think about what people will say in response or think, i just know that there is one person who hears me and that is God. That is most comforting to me. I know that no matter what i do or say...He is there. No matter what dark valley I am treading through...He never leaves me. I know there is nothing i can do or say to make him love me less....He is a love that no man can offer or knows.
i just caught myself smiling.
I've always wanted a love that would stick up for me when no one else would...a love that would protect me when i'm beaten down or tossed about, a love that hides me in it's arms....just because. i've always wanted a love that never leaves me or forsakes me because it is bored or found something better. i've always wanted a love that means what it says.... a love that keeps no record of my wrongs....a love that doesn't punish me for having a bad day or ignores me because it's having a bad day. i've always wanted those things....and all along i've had it right at my finger tips....right in front of me....right in my heart. i've had that love but i reject it everyday for something trivial or distracting that only leaves me empty... and i'm always left at the end of the day asking myself why?
i've always had that love....the love that God can only offer me....for FREE. i've always had it...and the best part is...i didn't have to do a thing to gain it. i just believe....and the other best part is.. there is nothing i can do to lose this great love.
i have God and that is all i need. there are some lyrics from a band called RED that i LOVE so much right now. sometimes it's how i feel and knowing that it's clearly a song...somebody else has felt that way too....makes me think that we're all searching and needing something deeper in our lives than just surface and "things" of the world that don't fill us up. afterall, "all that glitters isn't gold."
"I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way
Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole
I've come undone
But you make sense of who I am
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Like puzzle pieces in your eye
Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole!"- RED
