EXODUS 14:14

"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." - EXODUS 14:14

Monday, February 8, 2010

I woke up today..

I woke up today not holding on to some things that I have been for a long time. I woke up today with a different feeling inside of me, and the wierd part is..lately I haven't been as close to God as I should be. I woke up today not wanting a sense of acceptance from people that I usually want it from, or not wanting the longing to be loved and cherished, but i woke up today with a sense that no matter what happens in my life... I have God.

I let go of a lot of things today...but i'm sure that tomorrow i'll wake up and those things i let go...will somehow find their way right back at my bedside waiting for me to wake up and start my day.

Everyday is a struggle for me...sometimes I want to give up, and sometimes I feel that no one is on my side. I know that no matter the circumstance, My Jesus is holding my hand.

It isn't a matter of if I wake up or not to a good day or a bad day, it is a matter of how I handle it and running to Jesus...

So when I lay down to sleep tonight, even though I let go of a few things that have been holding me down lately, i know i'll wake up to another day full of struggles, obstacles and hardships, but nothing's gonna keep me down forever.

Galatians 6:9

Saturday, February 6, 2010

There are certain days where I feel so free and nothing can bring me down because
I know what I do have, and I know who I am and there are days where I allow fear to creep inside of me and I want an escape to my "problems", but lately I think I have let it slip my mind who my creator is. It isn't I that created myself and knows me, it is my Father in Heaven.

I like to take drives... especially when the sun is setting.

I come to this place a lot... I think I have a picture of this tree in every season. Fort Boreman Park.

Sometimes I think my only occupation is to laugh...

I don't want to be dead in this temporary life I live. I know I don't have much time on this earth, and I never know how long I have or anyone else important in my life for that matter. Sometimes I wonder if I waste my life...but at the same time I know that I am where I am at this exact moment for a reason, a purpose, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I just want to find God's will...whatever that may be.

No matter where I go, I always find God near.